A few years ago i couldnt of told you i would be here today. A few years ago i couldnt of told you i would be alive today. A few years ago i couldnt of told you that im a strong young woman. A few years ago i couldnt of told you that i had a purpose in life. So listen to my story & get to know the real me.
Being a young minded girl i thought i knew everything and noone could tell me anything. I was walking around like my stuff didnt stank. Trying to be grown when in reality i was a kid. I got into a deep pit a pit that was so strong me & me alone couldnt get me out of it. Now i knew God yes but, i only knew his name, i could sing all the "black people songs" you know the ones that only talk about what they been through, going through dont worship God songs yes those, i knew every last one but, yet if you ask me about God im like Mike Jones who ? funny but, true.
I had to be broken, broken so bad for God to get me where he needed me to be. Now im not where i wanna be in life but, im a long way from where i use to be. Often times God takes us through trials & tribulations not because he wants us to hurt, not because he wants us to fail, not because he doesnt love us but, simply because he wants us to get all the things he has for us and to be closer to Him. Now back then i thought God didnt love me, he didnt care about me cause if he did he wouldnt of took me through all the pain and heartaches but, as i went through the storm and boy they were storms i realized that God did love me, he did care he was trying to save me from me. I didnt realize that all i went through was because of ME i thought it was everyone around me that caused me to go through the pit. Ever felt alone in a crowded room surrounded by familiar faces yep that was me. I can honestly say that if God never took me through that pit i still wouldnt know him. Meanwhile i was going to church every tuesday,wednesday and sunday being an active member and still didnt know him. Crying almost every sunday saying Lord Lord why me when i didnt realize it was Me who caused this pit, it was me who was hurting myself. [Matthew 10:39 says Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.) I had to hand my life over to God cause i obiviously wasnt doing a good job. Trying to do things all by myself when i knew i needed help but, my pride got in the way and because of that i was broken.
Dont take your situation & circumstances out on God saying Lord why did you do this to me, why am i going through this and all those other weak minded sayings. Realize that its YOU. You trying to save yourself but, God wants you to lose yourself so that he can save you. God's ways are not our ways and his thoughts are not our thoughts for he thinks & does more than we could ever imagine. Thank God for that and if i never matured i wouldnt know God like i know him today. I couldnt come to him in Boldness and Authourity i would still be saying Lord if you get me out this i promise i will do better knowing i wouldnt gone do better.
So i encourage you that next time your going through anything dont ask God why. Why im not married ? Why i havent found the right person ? Why im still single after all these years ? Cus it could be that your not ready for your mate or your mate is not ready for you but, whatever the reason is take the time to get you right so that when that mate does come your ready. Dont ask God why this and that didnt work. He could have somethig greater instore for you than you were asking for. Dont ask him why ? There's a reason and a season just be patient and work. Now when i say work i mean dont be that person thats always on their knees praying but, when you get off your knees you dont do anything. Faith without works is dead. You must put in work. You do your part God will do his part. Dont question God anymore just know that he can do exceedingly and abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.
This is really good, I enjoyed it.
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